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January 13th, 2009

03:19 pm:
CONGRATULATIONS LAKOTA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am SOOOOOOoooooooo proud of you for your grades this 6 weeks! You are amazing and so lucky that you took your intelligence from your maternal Unci! LOL

So.....guess what this means?????



I love you!

11:18 am:

It is cold here in East Tennessee. Chris has been stacking wood on the porch and from the looks of the temps for the next week…we are gonna need it. We have been getting up of a morning and leave together very early. I take Chris to Amanda’s to keep Perrin over there. There are several reasons for this, the driveway is a mess after all the rain and I don’t want any extra cars coming and going than necessary. It is a lot colder at my house of a day and I don’t want Perrin sick. Amanda don’t have to get up super early and drive all the way out to my place to drop Perrin off then drive out again late in the evening and not get home til 7pm or so. It works out good as we are saving a bit on wood usage and Chris can get things done on the internet during the day that he needs to do. Amanda has high speed and with Chris over there, she don’t mind him using it so it works out great. Only bad thing is it puts the dogs being alone for about 10 or more hours. That is not good, but we make sure when we get home to make up for it. Plus they have the weekends with us. Other than Amanda’s for babysitting, we are playing hermit of sorts. We like the seclusion of home and need that right now. We are at a time when we are second guessing everyone’s intentions and with that going on in one’s brain, it is best to spend some time alone so as not to get on other people’s nerves, unintentionally take advantage of others and not cause our stress to bleed out into the lives of others. We cause less trouble this way I suppose. Although I love Winter, I am longing for a hint of Spring, some finality, settlements, stability and knowledge of what is to be. Plus, I crave to see a bit of light past 5pm….without the use of oil lamps. Oh, one thing that is so nice right now, Chris has started placing large flat stones on the heater before bed. He takes them and puts them in the bed before we head that way. It warms the bed so nicely and then we can cuddle up with them for hours, keeping us warm in the night. Does anyone else sleep with rocks for this purpose?

09:57 am:

Now this is what I call Winter! I certainly hope we have enough wood cut!!!!!!!!!

January 12th, 2009

10:41 am:
I had a very good weekend. We played with the dogs, spent a lot of time at home. We did have breakfast with Amanda Saturday morning. We spent some great quality time together, me and Chris. I really should spend more time at the end of the couch looking out the window more often. Chris chopped wood and stacked it on the porch. I cleaned house, washed dishes and made a fabulous dinner. Sunday we did laundry, visited his Mom, and last night we played cards and ate some delicious blackberry dumplins I made. Me and Sadie sleep very strange together. This pics was taken by Chris and you have to keep in mind that it is very dark in our house at night, but maybe you can make it out. I lightened the pic as much as I could. And yes…why yes…that is her arm laying across my eyes. LOL

January 9th, 2009

01:02 pm:

So I adopted SadieMae and gave her probably the very first Yule she has ever had. We have kept her in the house and have been patient and slowly potty training her. She has taken some time, as we have to be extremely careful with her. This wonderful animal was horribly abused and I cannot even stand to think of what she has endured at the hands of man. If someone just stands up in a room, she cowers, hides and starts shaking. She was just terrified when we got her home.

SadieMae was taken to get spayed on the 30th. That upset me and her both. I thought I was just going to die having to leave her there all day. She looked at me like “oh no, what did I do wrong for you to bring me back here?” The cages and other dogs barking just horrified her. I tried to explain that I was so sorry but that I promised to be back for her. Pick-up was 3pm-5pm and I was there at exactly 3pm. She was drugged but wagged her tail when she saw me. She could not drag herself out of the cage, so I crawled into it with her and kissed her a million times. I scooped her up and carried her to the car. She was well babied for days, carried out to pee and poop and carried back in. She lost so much weight those few days from not eating. Her appetite is back now and she slowly recovered.
During this time, I started taking her outside to sit beside me without her leash on. I gradually let this grow to letting her walk out the door beside us and I walked with her to her favorite bathroom spots and then back to the house. Eventually I got to where I would sit out in the field with her without the leash and just love each other. She has done very well.

Her potty training has went well, she will hold it sometimes for 12 hours until we get home to go out to do her business. She is eating well and the medication appears to have gotten rid of the worms she had. She has started putting on weight and is just beautiful. When I get home from work she turns into Mrs. I won’t take no for an answer lap dog. She crawls up into my lap, all 45 pounds of her and gives me my first evening bath. She will just lay there and enjoy the attention. Then she alternates between me and Chris. She is still pretty scared of him, will cower and hide when he moves and you would not believe the terror if he has a lantern in his hand. She will not enter the door until he hides it. We can let her out to do her business now and she will go for it and then come back to the door, but ONLY the door she went out, never to another door even if she is called.

Nights are best. Sometimes she will try to sleep on the couch, most times she just goes to bed with me. If she started on the couch I will feel her ease up on the bed in the middle of the night. She comes over to my side of the bed and lets me know she is there. I let her under the cover and we just cuddle up close to each other. She thanks me….over and over….and over, until I just tell her I love her and that is enough. She is just perfect to me.

She still has a lot of training to do when she is more at ease. She has started playing some and has even shown some protective qualities, when she growled at my reflection in the window because she thought someone was outside coming towards me. She gets a little over protective wanting Cletus to stay away from me at times, but we are working on that by not dividing them between us and showing both attention from each of us. Cletus is over protective as Chris, so that is something we will have to work on with both of them. 

I am thankful for her. She has brightened my life and I am so fortunate I was able to get her. I love her, she is a good dog, she is a perfect fit in our family and when I kiss that soft area of her droopy lab lip and hear her sigh….my heart smiles.

December 22nd, 2008

10:55 am:
Fantastic Weekend....

Met onine friends, took a road trip with no directions, trained a dog, finsihed shopping and more... 

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December 19th, 2008

10:24 am:
I have been in emotional rollercoaster hell the past 24 hours. SadieMae was doing great and stuck to my side every minute I was home. yesterday while I was at work, Chris was putting things in the car and there was a slight accident involving Perrin, a door and SadieMae in which she ran away. Chris raised his voice to Perrin and she just took off.

No amount of words can define and describe the fear in this dog. Chris can cough and she jumps and hides. If he stands up, she backs away, cowers down and tries to hide. A sudden move scares her badly and she suffers from terrible nightmares every time she goes to sleep. I have no clue what the dog has suffered in her life, but it has not been good and has apparently been at the hands of a man. She has been beaten and abused horribly. In addition to that, she does not know her name yet and if you whistle or call her in any way, she is terrified and runs. I have never seen a dog that has been abused to this point.

I searched for her last night for hours. My daughters searched as well. Chris searched and finally I just had to go home. Mostly because Norm and Vickey were back from vacation and Norm was just mean and cruel to me. He said something, without thinking...AGAIN...and it just brought tears to my eyes because he has no clue what I have been going through. After I stopped the search, I cried, a lot. I went to bed early and cried. My sleep was filled with nightmares. I woke up many times and laid in bed awake for hours worrying about her being alone and scared in the woods, and I am talking about hundreds of acres of woods, creeks and briar patches. At 5am I could not stand it anymore. I felt like she was out there looking for me and it was driving me insane. I got up, put my hiking boots on and made the trip back up to the car. I told Chris I was going on to work (yeah 3 hours early). I turned the headlights out when I got to his Mom's house and headed out to the woods. She was no where to be seen. I got back in the car and was heading on to work when she ran from across the road. I stopped the car in the middle of the road and jumped out. As soon as I said he name, she ran to me and leaped into my arms, seriosuly leaped to the point of knocking me down into the ditch. I just held her and I think we kissed for 5 minutes. I picked her up and put her in the car and called Chris to meet me at the top of the hill with the leash. He got up there (in his robe and tennis shoes) and I just laid on the ground with her for about 15 minutes.

I was covered in mud, called Amanda, Chris went home and got dressed and we went to Amanda's at 630am. I took a shower and SadieMae laid on the couch with me for a long time. I had to wrap a present for my supervisor and she was right by my side the entire time.

We are making a trip to Marietta GA tomorrow to take Hazel to her sister's house for a week. I just talked to Amanda and she plans to babysit SadieMae while we are gone. So I will not have to worry about her. After that, I will have 2 weeks with her, without having to leave for work. By then, hopefully she will feel safer and more secure with us and we will not have any more sleepless nights.

So...she is home....I am happier than words can describe and I hope this is the end of the doggy drama.

Things are so crazy hectic right now. We go to Marietta tomorrow and that will be an all day thing. I want to spend some time alone with Vickey and go out to dinner or lunch to talk to her about some things but not sure with our schedules when I can fit that in. I have a day with Amanda Tuesday I think and alas.....things are stressful right now.

December 17th, 2008

11:21 am:

1. Where did you begin 2008?
I brought in the year at home in the trailer, in bed. LOL I figure the new year will get here whether I am awake to experience it not and if I don’t wake up, I’ll not care anyway. It is not worth losing sleep over.

2. What was your status by Valentines Day?
Well, I was with the man I love.

3. Were you in school anytime this year?
No, other than to see or spend time with the grandkids.

4. Did you have to go to the hospital?
ROFLMAO...yeah. I stabbed my wrist and injected chicken blood into my veins, I took a cedar tree and slammed it down on both my feet and I had one other instance that we won’t discuss.

5. Did you have any encounters with the police?
None involving me, other than calling them on other people.

6. Where did you go on vacation?
I did not take a real vacation this year, but we did spend a bit of time hanging out in the mountains here.

7. What did you buy over $110?
Gee...lemme think. I bought lumber to build a house, I bought a new car. I think that is about it.

8. Did you know anybody who got married?

9. Did you know anybody who passed away?
Yes, I lost someone very special to me this year. Jimmy was a Father to me and I miss him terribly. Also, I had an aunt die this past week and a few people from work.

10. Did you move anywhere?
YAY....yes! We built our little one room shack this summer and moved in May 27th!

11. What sporting events did you attend?
Absolutely NONE!

12. What concerts/shows did you go to?

13. Describe your birthday.
I don’t remember. I think we went out for crab legs. It was alas....so long ago!

14. What is the ONE thing you thought you would not do, but did, in 2008?

15. What have been your favorite moments?
Building my house, moving in, living without electricity or plumbing, getting a new dog, going to Nashville with my family for the day.

16. Any new additions to your family?
Yes, we got a new cat named Pole Cat who was a stray that showed up, a new kitten named Drop Dead Fred who was deserted and just adopted a new doggy named SadieMae from the animal shelter.

17. What was your best month?
JUNE! We were moved into the house and the stress from my old home was gone.

18. Who has been your best drinking buddy?
I don’t drink. LOL

19. Made new friends?
I made some new online friends and a few Freemasons that I like, but that is about it.

20. Favourite night out?
Any time I went out with my family.

21. Other than home, where did you spend most of your time?
Work sadly.

22. Have you lost any friends this year?
Only one to death. There was a few acquaintances that I knew online that I had liked and we had a falling out. I had hoped they were not past mending but, one must go on and allow time to make that choice I suppose.  

23. Change your hairstyle?
No it is as boring as it ever was.

24. Have any car accidents?
NO thankfully, this year there were none.

25. How old did you turn this year?
46? I think. LOL

26. Do you have a New Years resolution?
Only one, and I will keep that a secret, it involves my spirituality is all.

27. Do anything embarrassing?
I don’t get embarrassed easily. Cannot remember anything embarrassing this year.

28. Buy anything from eBay?
Attempted to, but I don’t think I got anything this year.

29. Get married or divorced?

30. Get hit on?
LOL yeah, but I am in love so, I just grinned and went on.

31. Been snowboarding?

32. Did you get sick this year?
Only from the chicken blood! LOL

33. Are you happy to see 2008 go?
Not really, it has been a wild and crazy year. At my age, you prefer time to pass slowly.

34. Been naughty or nice?
Mostly naughty I guess, but I do try to be nice.

35. What are you looking forward to most in 2009?
Getting things settled, finishing the house and finding out what Spring is like for us on the homestead.

08:40 am:

SadieMae is starting to open up a little bit. I got home yesterday and she was so excited, she just crawled up in my lap and would not leave. When I sat on the couch, she headed right over there. I actually paid down for a bit to take a shirt nap and she got right on top of me and stuck her nose on my neck and snoozed with me. Well, we snoozed in between moments of Perrin sneaking around the table and screaming “Boo” every 5-10 minutes. LOL She will soon be used to loud sounds I think, especially with Perrin around. She ate very good yesterday, Rachael Ray’s dog food. I figure it fattened Cletus up and he loved it so it should put some meat on her little skinny bones. She seems to really like it as well. She used the bathroom outside all evening and is doing better on the leash. We were walking home last night and she walked all the way, she did very good. There are a few things we will have to adjust in the house for her. The cat food and cat water had to be moved to the counter so she would not snack on it all night. We will have to find a way to cover the drain buckets under the sink, as she wants to drink from them. I had to block off the closet because she was fascinated with the litter box. She slept in the bed beside me all night and Cletus slept in the bed as well…. Along with Cutie on our heads and Azrael under the cover with Chris. The first day I never gave her any commands or tried to alter her behavior in any way. I started this morning trying to teach her some manners and she did well. I was eating breakfast and she wanted to ease herself right up on me and stick her nose in my plate. I had to tell her no several times and even gently put her down and point at her to tell her no once. She did very well after that and just laid down at my feet by the couch and did not try to take the food. I was so proud of her. She also peed and pooped walking to the car this morning and I commended her greatly for that. She is just adorable, so very adorable. I cannot imagine what this poor baby has been through, there are times that she will just cower down and will not even look at Chris. It breaks my heart and I would love to find the person who abused this dog. I hope very bad things happen to them.


However, she has a great home now and is slowly learning that not everyone will hurt her and that love is a very good thing. She is getting along great with Cletus and plays with Perrin. She is slowly opening up and will continue to get better with time. This weekend we will be heading to PetSmart of somewhere and get all the Yule shopping done for the animals. I have tog et SadieMae’s stocking up as well and I am so excited, I cannot wait until they see what Old Man Winter brought them all.


Chris has been wonderful with her and I am so thankful for him. Remember he does not like dogs (lol) and especially does not like short haired dogs. He has been every so kind and gentle with her, just as he was Cletus. Thing is, Cletus just warmed right up to Chris immediately. They were best friends from minute 1 and he remained by Chris’ side ever since. SadieMae I think knows that when I got in her cage with her that first day, I loved her. She was so happy when Amanda brought her into the office and I was there ready to kiss her. She has remained by my side and will either be laying on the couch with me, laying beside the couch where I am, in my lap or following me every step I take. Jealousy rose its head a bit last night with Cletus and Chris. She got up on the couch and got close to Chris and Cletus had to give her a slight growl to inform her that was his Daddy. But for the most part, they did get along well. We have been blessed once more!

December 16th, 2008

08:55 am:

So the story goes…


I went to the shelter to adopt a Saint Bernard/Akita mix and well, that did not work out. He was very loving to me and gentle, but when Amanda came over to the shelter, he began to drag her around the room by her arm and actually broke skin with his teeth. I was then informed he had killed a cat and it broke my heart, but I could not risk any of the other family members getting hurt by the dog, so I had to walk away. I went on through the shelter and fell on love with another dog who was so scared, shaking and shy. Then some idiot woman informed me they THINK “he” MIGHT be part Pit Bull and in order to adopt her there was a home inspection, you cannot have kids, you have to have a fenced yard and crap. This was after I spent a LONG time in the cage with this dog. So once again my heart was just broken.


Of course the dog’s picture was in the paper Friday night with animals needing adoption from the shelter. I stopped by the shelter in Knoxville Sunday and I could not stand even looking at the dogs, so I just left depressed. But yesterday I called the shelter about the black dog. The lady I talked to said there were no special adoption procedures for the dog but she cold not understand why I would want it, it does not bark, won’t eat, is severely depressed and blah, blah, blah! Well good grief, that is why I wanted the baby. But, they said I could have her. I would not take any chances, so I called Amanda and she was 45 minutes away. She said she would go straight over there to get her before they changed their minds again. She did and the dog was in the front lobby where I work within an hour.


HER (shows how much the shelter knows) name is SadieMae and I love her so very much. She is Lab with a bit of Pit mixed in. She is about 10 months old. She is terrified of men, leashes and thunderstorms. I finally got her to eat last night, but she would not go out on a leash to use the bathroom. She won’t walk on a leash. She did great with all 3 grandkids, even with Perrin stepping on her feet a few times she never snapped, growled or got impatient with him. Chris had to carry her all the way from the road to the house (we have to park up there because my driveway is impassable with all this rain lately). Cletus was mega excited. She made a few low, tiny growls at him and he made a few at her. She paid no attention to the cats. She crapped and peed in the floor right before bed. Both of them ended up on the couch on each side of Chris. When he came to bed they slept together until 4am.


At 4am I felt something very cold on my face. I opened my eyes a bit to see some lightening outside and thunder. SadieMae was nudging my face with her nose. I whispered “come on up here baby” and she slowly and gently made her way onto the bed. She ended up underneath the cover with me and took her head to put my arm around her. I think she was scared of the storm. She slept under the cover with me until after 6am. Then she proceeded to use the bathroom in the house again (that is something we will definitely have to fix). This morning, with the encouragement of deer jerky, she walked all the way to the car on the leash. She was excited to see Amanda and Perrin this morning. She is adorable and I love her so very much. My favorite part is the droopy skin at the corner of her mouth that is so very soft and I love to kiss and kiss and kiss that soft skin. She loves me too and I am so thankful we could save her life and give her a good home. She will have a wonderful Yule with the family and I will be buying her stocking today, put her name on it and hang it up beside everyone else’s in the family. So... presenting to you my newest family member…SadieMae

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